So I've always considered myself to be a strong person...well maybe not always. There were those years, close to six, that I spent in a relationship that made me feel very weak! Then one day I had one of Oprah's "Ah-Ha!" moments and realized I was too good for all that nonsense and walked out the door, never to look back. I left him, finished my under grad education, went on to obtain my Master's, had a little fun being single (ok a lot of fun), and when I was better on the inside, I met someone better. That man is the love of my life and that man is in Vegas and has left me home with our three kids four and under for four days! Thus the title of this post! The past eight months or so have probably been the most stressful time in my life. I had my third child, was promoted before I even returned from maternity leave, returned to work to take on new responsibilities, begin to supervise two people, and at year end which is an extremely busy time where I work. Then of course personally we had Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, oh it's always something! With three kids in daycare, there is always a party or event to prepare for. But I don't dare mess up any of those, I send what they need because I know how important those things are to a child. I only thought I juggled a lot before last July when baby Neely was born. So then my husband decides to go and win a trip to Vegas, how dare he? He owns a car care shop with his brother and they are both there. They won the trip from one of their suppliers. He left Thursday morning and will be back Sunday evening. It's now Saturday evening as I write. I've managed pretty well. My son, Colin, had a ball game Friday night so I lugged all three kiddos out to the ball field. Fortunate for me, three of the Grandparents showed up to help wrangle them all! I hate his Dad couldn't be there. Dad's need to be at ballgames, they just do! I know it's not always possible but it's important for a boy to look back and remember his Father being there. I know that Colin will remember it that way because his Dad is very "there". The rain squashed the game today. Of course, that only happened after I got myself and three kids dressed, packed up, and in the van, all strapped in car seats...then the email came over on my phone to cancel the game. Ah...thus is life!. Colin left late this afternoon to spend the night with my Dad so we had a quiet girls evening here at home! I complain a lot to my husband. But him being away has been a good way to remind me how much he does help, even if I feel like he doesn't all the time. When I tell him he isn't doing enough he often likes to tell me how many men don't do as much as he does. I tell him that if I had wanted a man like that, I'd have married the first one who proposed to me! There is a reason I made that life choice. Well right now tonight, I really miss him. I've really been too busy until now to miss him. Good thing he's coming home tomorrow. And on Monday, his second shop (franchise) is scheduled to open....oh bring on the stress! I think I've conditioned myself to be one of those folks that just can't stop moving...if I stop, I'll crash! I wouldn't trade my life for anything, even on the bad days!
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